Can you see the date i posted this? 10-10.. My birthday! coz im soo down and alone..(like always anyways) and all i do was to post this songs..just to hear them every now and then... i wasnt with anyone and will never be ok?!! he's a friend and thats all he can be..never for anything anymore!! :( :( :( you know how much i needed you... you know.... but theres nothing i can do now but to keep my self shut..my world shut...i have no choice... and you're the one who doesnt need me anymore..and never will. :(
i have no idea whatever he told you.. he only said you mssged him in facebook and he replied you to not bother and not include him in whatever!!! and gotten in this situation..asking you to give this child..even begging you..i think no one in a relation with someone else would do that!! and for your information NO ONE would accept me in this kind of condition! no man would! specially him!! so think about it.. i lied before..i lied about my previous marriage coz i was afraid to loose you thinking no man would ever love me again coz i was married...but im not an immoral person.. and one thing..about the death threats you were saying... all of a sudden it was a death threaths..let me remind you,we were telling before that id kill you if you'l ever leave me... id rather kill you that to see you with someone else! (you were telling this as well) and i will cursed your life if you'l leave me!.. coz thats how much i loved you! and you know the reason why i said all those... you know the reason why.....i was provoked.. i came to you..still begging..asking for forgiveness...i wasnt heared... and it was hard for me to just see you walk away...its not that easy.... i lost my family... i lost my life...i lost all my dreams and hope... it wasnt easy to just take everything just like that....
anyways i have nothing to do now... im just sad that everything was wasted just like that..and in the most worst ending i never thought we will have... but none the less may be it needs to happen.. i may be see the purpose oneday.. and no matter what il survive with my children..i need to.
so you have a good life too.. i know it wont be hard for you. we have said everything up to the worst... lets not dig our self more to pain and hell.
Im just hoping one day you'l forgive me for everything ive said and done... we both know what truely happen... i just want you to know that you're the best person ive ever met and have in my life..and best person who ever completed me :( .. you will always be remebered.. always....
forgive me by saying this... mahal na mahal kita (sobing) mahal na mahal...
you are?.... why?..... i was tormented waiting for a call or sms from you... il die if that will continue.. and so atleast to make sleep stay for a while i decided to change number.... im no longer in yahoo too bcoz i have no one else to talk there.... sigh....im worried of what you'l gona tell me...but if you really wanna talk to me, im always online in skype coz of my work... just add me....
Im usually online 9am -6:30pm.. then after im soo exhausted cant able to stay more in my pc... but im also using my motor singapore skype accnt so may be sometimes im offline in the other... but anyways just drop me a mssg..il get back to you... thanks
i will miss you... just remember.. if one day you wanna come back... pls do.... il take you back in any condition you are... old..sick..poor.... we're here ok? take care of your self... if you can still do the lemon water pls do..... its good for you...
and by the way... just to share with you.. he doctor said i have big chance of having baby girl ( which you have already predicted) coz of heartbeat..... and i decided to choose the name "Arianne" ..(originated in france)... yes its letter A... so someone would represent the tattoo in your chest...
i hate my self..i hate hate my self...all i want is to be a good partner to you and a mother to our child... thats all i fucking want!! what the hell happened to us!! i cant let you go... i cant.... im sorry i cant..... you know what? il gona fly there! soon as i can! do whatever you want to me! kill me... hurt me.. do it! but il gona be there to show you how sorry i am for everything....
just dont do go please...im begging.. stay around..i wont require you anything.... just please stay around... talk to me once in a while.. lets take a day at a time..... tell me everything you want.... even bad things...il take it...
you dont need me anymore, i wonder if you ever did... he's there for you now.... :(
ReplyDeleteCan you see the date i posted this? 10-10.. My birthday! coz im soo down and alone..(like always anyways) and all i do was to post this songs..just to hear them every now and then... i wasnt with anyone and will never be ok?!! he's a friend and thats all he can be..never for anything anymore!! :( :( :( you know how much i needed you... you know.... but theres nothing i can do now but to keep my self shut..my world shut...i have no choice... and you're the one who doesnt need me anymore..and never will. :(
ReplyDeletereally.... a friend....:"we are closing OUR door to you, We will go on with our life TOGETHER" i guess he should have choose his words differently...
ReplyDeletehave a good life, TOGETHER or were you really ever appart....?
i have no idea whatever he told you.. he only said you mssged him in facebook and he replied you to not bother and not include him in whatever!!! and gotten in this situation..asking you to give this child..even begging you..i think no one in a relation with someone else would do that!! and for your information NO ONE would accept me in this kind of condition! no man would! specially him!! so think about it.. i lied before..i lied about my previous marriage coz i was afraid to loose you thinking no man would ever love me again coz i was married...but im not an immoral person..
ReplyDeleteand one thing..about the death threats you were saying... all of a sudden it was a death threaths..let me remind you,we were telling before that id kill you if you'l ever leave me... id rather kill you that to see you with someone else! (you were telling this as well) and i will cursed your life if you'l leave me!.. coz thats how much i loved you! and you know the reason why i said all those... you know the reason why.....i was provoked.. i came to you..still begging..asking for forgiveness...i wasnt heared... and it was hard for me to just see you walk away...its not that easy.... i lost my family... i lost my life...i lost all my dreams and hope... it wasnt easy to just take everything just like that....
anyways i have nothing to do now... im just sad that everything was wasted just like that..and in the most worst ending i never thought we will have... but none the less may be it needs to happen.. i may be see the purpose oneday.. and no matter what il survive with my children..i need to.
so you have a good life too.. i know it wont be hard for you. we have said everything up to the worst... lets not dig our self more to pain and hell.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yfJt9KkMDQ0&
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-Eric.
Im just hoping one day you'l forgive me for everything ive said and done... we both know what truely happen... i just want you to know that you're the best person ive ever met and have in my life..and best person who ever completed me :( .. you will always be remebered.. always....
ReplyDeleteforgive me by saying this... mahal na mahal kita (sobing) mahal na mahal...
bye
You know im here and how to reach me... I tried calling you...
ReplyDelete-Eric
you are?.... why?..... i was tormented waiting for a call or sms from you... il die if that will continue.. and so atleast to make sleep stay for a while i decided to change number.... im no longer in yahoo too bcoz i have no one else to talk there....
ReplyDeletesigh....im worried of what you'l gona tell me...but if you really wanna talk to me, im always online in skype coz of my work... just add me....
unblocked you on Skype... waiting to see you online.
ReplyDeleteIm usually online 9am -6:30pm.. then after im soo exhausted cant able to stay more in my pc... but im also using my motor singapore skype accnt so may be sometimes im offline in the other... but anyways just drop me a mssg..il get back to you... thanks
ReplyDeletei will miss you... just remember.. if one day you wanna come back... pls do.... il take you back in any condition you are... old..sick..poor.... we're here ok? take care of your self... if you can still do the lemon water pls do..... its good for you...
ReplyDeleteand by the way... just to share with you.. he doctor said i have big chance of having baby girl ( which you have already predicted) coz of heartbeat..... and i decided to choose the name "Arianne" ..(originated in france)... yes its letter A... so someone would represent the tattoo in your chest...
wish you happiness..
je t'aime tellement...
bye
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbKqtMLoIpk&feature=fvst
ReplyDeleteMy feelings for you are forever!!
=( =( =(
i'm so torn between love and hate.... it's tearing me appart...
-Eric.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1W5lFW-vUY
ReplyDeletei hate my self..i hate hate my self...all i want is to be a good partner to you and a mother to our child... thats all i fucking want!! what the hell happened to us!! i cant let you go... i cant.... im sorry i cant..... you know what? il gona fly there! soon as i can! do whatever you want to me! kill me... hurt me.. do it! but il gona be there to show you how sorry i am for everything....
just dont do go please...im begging.. stay around..i wont require you anything.... just please stay around... talk to me once in a while.. lets take a day at a time..... tell me everything you want.... even bad things...il take it...
il be there soon